It is 4:48am on October 13th, I have not yet slept and here I am. Life has been hard for me the past few years. I have suffered trauma, grief and heartache, but yet, throughout it all I have experienced moments of incredible beauty, love, kindness, friendship and joy. Because of that, I have a will to keep moving on. This newsletter will explore some of the "why's and how's" that drive me to keep trying to live a beautiful life no matter what twists and turns it may take. I hope that some of you get something from it.